Day 19 - imagination meets reality.

Takes a proper hot head to have the insanity to embarrass yourself in public... it takes so much courage to leap on your own and get it right. I really have been living in a new world up there on my own. That world is who I am though as an extremely imaginative person.

This whole thing all comes down to waking up one day as a second year student at varsity and realising that your time here is going to end soon. What are you going to do with your degree, what are you going to do with your life? Somebody once told me that no path is easy in this life. Every road has its potholes, obstacles and ditches. The best thing to base any career on is passions. Going after your passions and surviving through living them out is what life should really be about. Maybe there'd be more fulfilled individuals in the world.

I've never been one for sticking to the rules and that has burnt me a whole lot in the past and still does. The world breeds strong people and timid ones, I'd def be in the balance of the 2. I hate falling and thats crazy because in anything you pursue in this life you might fail a number of times at it before you get it right. Sometimes those falls are embarrassing but oh well what the hell, are you going to stop living because you fell?

I'm just a regular person trying to figure out how I can make ends meet doing what I enjoy doing and still seeing to it that I survive. I knew I should have taken that english class seriously, I just didn't want to be told how to write and stuff. I also should have taken that basic design class seriously as well, I'd have more to build on top of. I want to make writing my day job but keep it far from doing editorial work. I want to create things and put ideas together and not have to worry about grammar and punctuation and other important stuff that are necessary for delivering proper written work. I feel like I suck at that stuff because this is normally the last thing I'm thinking about when I'm writing anything. The focus is on content and whatever idea I'm sending out. If its lyrics I'm working on my biggest focus is sound and rhythm and how I play around with that stuff and normally all these rules just get in my way although they'r supposed to be helpful.

I want to eventually be able to weave writing into which ever day job I end up in. I don't know how that is going to work out since I seem to be so horrible at other aspects of it but I can improve and build myself up wherever I come short. All I'm really sure about right now is the fact that there's a lot of work still to be put into these ideas. It's really noisy in the world today with too many things going on but I best appreciate this space to grow.

The detail of the dream: @ Design sketchez, smokey shade, Saiyan hair, black fabric, insane lyricism and air...