Day 17 - Rome wasn't built in a day

I wrote a couple of bars today. The material was alright but I thought there was still space for improvement, I could construct the sound schemes better than I did...... but yeah, there's still lots more time to write more material... doing this all day felt really good for a change.

It's my 21st b'day this thursday and I'm thinking about all the things that I had hoped to have already achieved by this age. Still young enough to try again I guess there's nothing lost...

There's still a lot of work to do and I'm trying to balance that with school and writing and its really no walk in the park.......
If i can just keep going with these routine patterns I've come up with and continue practicing this stuff untill I eventually get it right than I'll give my mind time to process the patterns habitually and have them fall into second nature for me. Than I can actually get work done effortlessly coz its been programmed in there..... Being able to work and create all at the same time with my eyes closed.

Somebody told me that the genius thing anybody can do at whatever they set out to achieve for themselves is never giving up on it, to keep doing it until you get it right. So with me, I'm picking up those work routines for how I plan to juggle everything and then just jumping into action the best way I know how to, In whichever order the work comes in.

The writers have already submitted their articles and the the artists also have all submitted their answer tablets for the press blog and everyone's just waiting on me now to do my part. I don't know where I'll find Khuleza to get access into the labs over the weekend so I can get to do the new layout designs for our next offering in the blog. I did some new layout designs and would love to get into it and put that up with our next post but if that can't be organised in time i'll just move it up for the next post.

My programme is starting tomorrow morning... giving me more time to plan other things and organise the rest of my week properly. This journey of mine continues with 6 projects on the juggle and the main aim being the challenge of getting into the rhythm of things nomatter the work load.... It's funny how nothing has really lifted off for me but still some days I want to continue building and others I just want to watch everything crumble before me. I just lie in bed all day sometimes hopeless for not feeling any movement or progress or seeing where the effort is going to... You have to keep reminding yourself of the bigger picture in order to keep going coz without that there's no sense to all the little efforts you just look crazy to the world.

Today me and Sne were discussing 'creationz' *** and *** along with how we'r going to get that up and running by the end of next year. We didn't write anything down but in due time the ideas wil be solid enough to jot down. Right now though the only thing going on in my mind is successfully getting through this little hurdle I've created for myself with the school set backs and all. I need to do damage control there and find a way to make up for lost time coz its the one worry I have in my mind and the one thing constantly jabbing at me and bothering me with anxiety and fear.

This december I'm still organising the holiday job and hopefully in that time I can squeeze in gigs here and there as I grow with my craft maby even record new stuff who knows what's in store....

The main aim is in place now for why it is important to keep those working routines in motion. Develop those habits as a second nature so I can breeze into them effortlessly and thoughtlessly. Tomorrow the programme goes into effect and hopefully by the time that I diarise day 18 later tomorrow.... I would have successfully initiated the new patterns and taken all the steps I need to take. With order you get to have more time to spend on toher things because now there is a time for everything important in your life... that way you can chill better.