It gets rocky out here, I've got lots of material ready to be put out but it's not time yet... what to do with the half written love story about the crazy battle beast I almost but never really had?
I could write about that too and record it into my next project.... I'll cherish the experience for having opened up a few childhood scars I didn't even know were there. It was not him that I needed it was probably a father.... but oh hell, the journey proceeds still!
I'm finding myself in the craziest of places...
My own personal rebellious liberation, if feels beautiful to be going through something of this kind at this point on my life path. Still working towards building up a career that I'll be looking out for 24/7 365 as my only baby....
Next year should be all about staying focused no more faltering, 2013 came with a lot of lessons and treasures. Nobody has to understand what I'm doing right now... It will all make sense much later on when things starting materialising from idea to form.
Styling certainly comes naturally to me... almost as naturally as communication does.
If I've never stood by myself ever in my life before... this is that time to do so...
No more regrets!!
I have too much work to do to be updating this reality blogging project regularly, but I'll keep to twice a week updates giving the whole weeks low down as I'll jot things down on a note pad as I go along. Story of the life of a Nuhtkayz continues..... the journey writes itself on the pages of our long history of African creatives from birth walking this very planet of ours.
Change is coming into this life of mine with quick haste... still feel like I don't know what I'm doing yet but I'm having a blast learning and progressing. That personal success of waking up to a life that you are content with and happy with.
There's a combination of many things in the lane I'm currently venturing into.... My writing is still therapy and an escape from the harsh reality I regularly wake up to. It liberates me into my imagination,
that is probably why it is so hard to give up on. I'd be dead without that freedom to just fly off into my mind.
Time's not waiting on me to figure things out... I'd rather spend that time developing myself than moving aimlessly through the notions of social initiation. It's a waste of someone's time alive on this planet.
I'm ready to spend my time differently and constructively....
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I'd like to think that death sounds beautiful in a world where living means dying inside in order to get by... Surviving means self crucifixion because the work place is only for the dead at heart sometimes. You are going to invest all the days of your life in building at the bottom level of somebody else's company...
how do we free ourselves in a world that doesn't give us options?
I have to drive myself forward now and focus on nothing but my career and my way forward... I have to make that sacrifice worth it! that 9-5 can't be for nothing!! I just have to find a way to get it together after this...
ya can't be nice now, the time for that is UP.. play dirty or go home!!
Let's get this work on the road... this is where all my love, attention and focus is going into and nowhere else. There's a business to establish, a career to build and magic to be made!... focus is key!!
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