Day 50 - calm sets in

Yesterday was one of those super frustrating days.. but life must proceed.
Played around with images today and came out with these...

Remembering back to a time where the air smelt good filled with hopes and dreams and a million tomorrows just waiting for you. Now all that stuff is dead and poisonous.. will I continue being that weird girl with big hair rapping random mumbles coz I like the sound?

what am I doing with my life? Nothing at this point just too busy getting depressed and dealing with childhood issues. I had a discussion with my guides yesterday that yo, I'm living in a environment where creativity is not exactly appreciated, let alone celebrated. People will always think that you are just playing around and not doing anything serious.. people simply don't understand people like myself.

But the real challenge must be in finding ways to make it work... It's exam time now everybody's hiding out and studying. But me on my rebel with a silly cause tip busy standing back watching my life crumble coz it's simply do or die!!

I won't be intimidated by those little trolls who had silver spoons in their mouths all their lives... At the end of this I'll still have to WORK for everything I'll ever own so why judge? It's time to go buy myself a pin pop right now before stores close for the day.... That holistic involvement in my creative trade makes this whole shebang REAL to me.

Journalising still helps me put things into perspective... I wonder where I'll be with all these ventures in 5 years time. The world just needs to allow me to be that madness they gave me inside...