Look at you now all grown up, This is where it all began.... lol, muddy knees, dusty face and dirty little hands.
The conversation that I had last night with an old friend really made me think about stuff. The people that I really want to hold close to me are not the ones that I've met along the way although they are really cool people. It just makes better sense to me to keep going forward with the peoplewho know where the seed of Nuhtkayz comes from. Everytime I think of an audience I want to think of these people, they simply don't expect me to keep proving myself like everybody else I'v come across along this path. When I refer to people who know where I come from I'm talking about Urban Kraft brothers of mine. The Zaks and the Zweli's; Sizwe's; Pux's; Themba's and Shinzo's who rocked with me from the time I was only just beginning to concieve Nuhtkayz in this mind of mine. These brothers of mine who I killed shows with and cooked up crazy music with about 4 years ago. These are people that you are certain are genuin with you and you just know you can trust them.
Oh lawwwd!! that memory of HighSchool buzz.... hearing your jams play on strangers cellphones as you walk by, joints were bluetooth trolling all through Harrismith HighSchool and H.Secondary school. Hoerskool Dirkie Uys was worste because it was such a small community of kids that everyone knew each other personally. I'll never forget those Wilgepark rocka dudes treat you like royalty, their little local celeb only cos you got jams going around. kats would start hitting you up for shows and social gatherings keeping you up to date with everything and constantly showing mad love. Those memories!!!!
I didn't know what I was doing back then, But I understand that I was finding myself. Thinking back to that time really keeps you going. But the good thing about starting over in a totally different environment with complete strangers who don't know you personally is that it knocks you outside of your comfort zone. You learn how to ground yourself, how to communicate yourself and how to build into foundation in any arear where you don't get to have everyone believe in what you bring to the table. People who don't know your foundation will always feel you constantly need to keep proving yourself... but you need that kind of vibe to stay ever - sharp and humble all at the same time. It goes a long way in furthering your foundation.
The other highlight of today was officially partnering up with sicknatcha poetry sessions. Our numbers have grown to 2000 today when I checked so i decided to start up a twitter account for N.A.R to have a stable where we could interact with the readers better and know our audience by demographic and statistic and not only that but its a great way to keep in contact from the day to day; develop a breaking news anchor and perhaps even an "active in the scene" bit of the media that engages not only the readers but also the artists.. yo I know dyaim trolls wouldnt mind having paparazzi follow them around and shyii...lol!! kwaaks, I can be such a gweedo sometimes..*chuckle*
The sicknatcha folks are having a meeting today and probably the first one since partnering with N.A.R and its bummy I couldn't get there but soon when business meetings take off I won't miss any important meetings, the juggle with school can get really hectic sometimes but I tay A grade trolling!!
Big sista in the house!!! I was thinking of my 2 little brothers today, If there's anything that I want them to remember about me is that I was stubborn with the shit that I wanted and never allowed external factors to dictate my fate and decide my destiny for me... I wanted to go where i chose with my existence.
With all of the success that I am going to accumulate from this journey, I hope to inspire them to also use their areas of passion, ambition and inner desires to be the only compass they govern their lives by. Not by the rules of the world. Be the only dictator in your life of where you are moving next.
I know that one day they will wake up and realise that everybody is as clueless as they might be, and nobody really has all the answers. The best advice you could get in your life is the advice that your aspirations guide you with. Only be driven by the stuff inside of you is what I wish I could say to both of them. The reality of things is that even the rules could screw you over sometimes, so be ready to step over anything that gets in the way of you and that freedom to choose your own sh**!
We are that generation, we don't wait for anybody to come out and free us. We free ourselves! You feel wild in there and you want to breathe and express that, but socially disseminated stereotypes make strangers think that they know you well enough to tell you what you can and cannot do or be. Everybody thinks they know you based on how you are expected to be... but that can't really be you now can it?
Everytime somebody feels like I'm acting out of character or being wierd, I really feel like turning on my heel and saying "
"I live for the stuff inside of me and you cannot tell me Sh** because you exist outside of that realm.. I won't be told by you! the only compass I live my life by is that of my passions and ambitions and i go whichever way that fire in there directs me.. If you don't like it go n suck som ething coz nothings changing" too bad I never actually have the courage to splat on anybodys face like that. having too much respect for other human beings isn't always a good thing for real.
I've long come to terms with the fact that I'm an ideas person. I'm dreamy, I create these illusions in my mind and then I live in them, to the point where the people around me are convinced I'm delusional coz I'm not based in the same world as the one they are in... along with the rest of the world. Unfortunately that is never where I'm at.
The people who've known me all my life know that I've always been creative. Drawing came from the want to materialise that stuff that was going on inside of my mind.
I'm a communicater through my craft and that has always been me. The one thing setting the experience of my written pieces apart must be the dreamy surrealist quality I bring in. All of my bars and my poems come from that place in my mind where all of the illusions I've created over the years exist. So than they come across as alternative realities that I can do something pretty cool with.
What I love so much about social media is that it allows me to give a platform to these worlds that i'v created abd share that stuff with other wierdos like myself. This is still the one thing that excites me most about social media other than flirting with complete strangers and sexting gweedos out there.
Yesterday I wrote some new material and can't wait for saturday to make the trip to Ashdown and get that stuff laced and out there doing the rounds. A special way to reaching out to other trolls out there and saying "Ey Gweedo, you not delusional at all you just artier than the average individual here's another human being like yourself.. Nuhtkayz bayy"
Communicater and creater of alternative realities, Giving new life to the feel of my presence in every project!! Here wee come world....
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