Day 13 - stumbling over essentialz... All in a days step

This must have been the longest Friday of all my life! The clarity I got from this major breakdown and freak out period was worth the sacrifice of a couple of classes.  I know now that my head is clear and I can think straight. There's calm, peace and silence. There's completely nothing to be afraid of.

How ironic though that the peace came from realising that this was a war I needed to win. This vault and info wars space is a propa challenge tho! It's been going on for so long though with people repeatedly giving themselves and their self determined destinies up to serve dominant ideologies. Wa all know how fear discouraged folks from doing what they wanted to do with their lives like how many of our mothers and fathers opted for careers that were just a better option to what they would have loved to do? The means to survive, it was like the economy was this money carrot that black households were seperated with. Hoisted into economic slavery with minds seized at every corner of every building with media perpetuating stereotypes and all that other jazz. How could you blame people for existing in a shallow existence when that is all that they have ever known?

My older brother was swallowed up by this same vortex and I lost him forever 'coz the Kefuwe I met now is only a tiny miniscule of the Kefuwe He could have been had he not digested in his mind the ideological poison of his environment. Discovering a fuller living is great because you can bring pther people into it as well and we can all evolve together as people who are like one another. I wrote some amazing stuff today on this topic. That is where I got to realise that speaking for people who are fighters is exactly what I'm about! Pac was named after a Peruvian revolutionary that I am still doing research on. It is as though life gets better and better everyday as I progress into this journey of mine. Fighting off disrespectful people is not what I'd like to spend my time doing as people never always see in the same light. N- Never, I- Ignorant, G-going, G- for Gold is what it is!! I'm wondering whther I shouldnt just write my thesis on impact versus fame.

From tomorrow the candle sessions are beginning and I look forward to them. Reconnecting with my ancestors everyday is a change I look forward to. Nobody should fight alone in a battle greater than the here and the now. I'm still here building myself up into the ultimate communicater, creator and reporter.

Fighting daily to not be underhanded by any form of opposition or force is all in a days step... you know how goes, one step a day! I've come to realise how we create both negative and positive habits for ourselves.. that's where most frustration roots out from

(i'll continue this post some other time I really want to get to finishing my other work)