Today the life changing decision was officially made!!
The new chapter of the life of a Nuhtkayz' BEGINS today....
Today was the day I put a tag of value on the creative gifts I was born with, made the choice not to look down on the value of this stuff any longer. I've made my mind up and have figured out exactly what it is that needs to be done...
In 2 weeks time I'll be venturing into a new path.
I've dedicated the rest of this month to writing into the skin of the project that I plan to give life to once I've settled into my new life.
After 21 years of having to give the creative creature inside the backseat... having to put that element of myself aside and treat it as an unimportant extension only because everybody else didn't understand it and didn't believe in it enough....
All of that changes... Starting a new chapter on top of the craziest leap of faith in my life!!
Choosing to place that creative element of myself over and above everything else in this life is what this next chapter is about.
In this case, standing by what I believe in requires me to make major sacrifices as proof and conviction of how serious I am about it.. I will forever have to live with the consequences of the sacrifice of ditching this degree to hold down a 9 to 5 in order to take care of myself and the creative creature inside, there are tons of projects to fund and save up for.
The understanding that --- I'm literally giving up on the promise of an easier existence, the chance of qualifying for a better job/higher pay cheque. I'm walking out on all of that in order to pursue what makes my heart pump fastest. A totally right brained decision that I pride myself in because of how much courage such decisions require..
I'm a creative creature, the sacrifice of this (schooling) opportunity will illustrate perfectly how serious I am about what I do... these creative desires within me that I have for giving life to deck table scribbles, being a voice and standing for development in our creative industries here in South Africa. I want to lead creatively because that is where my heart is... Standing by what I have inside of me.
If I do not do this..... I will regret not following in the guidance of my areas of passion. This is that chance to put an end to the frustration of feeling like a big fish in a small pond..
I'm out here feeling like I'm living somebody else's dream while mine awaits... that can't be right.
I look forward to reality blogging about the adventures of journeying to joburg, crashing at friends, hustling a day job and making things happen for myself.
The experience of what it was like just diving in at the deep end at the start of a new path in my life.
I'll forever take pride in the fact that I was fearless enough to risk everything and jump in at the deep end. There's practically nothing for me to fall back on and that is how serious I am about making a success of my myself in my chosen field of expertise. The 21st century scribe now 'breathes'
what is it like being a creative creature living in the new South Africa?... The journey will continue telling that story.
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