Day 10 - The 'Shwama' for breakfast

So early in the morning you get a call that you got the job!!.. oh well what do you? you know very well that the time you applied you were serious about swopping your studies for a monthly pay cheque coz reality was hitting hard... but now, Now is a different time and a new day and you've straightened your thoughts out and decided exactly what it is that you want. "No I'm sinking my teeth into this degree and not looking back, I've come so far to just drop everything right now... It is just one damn year! I think I can go another year with the money hiccups, shoestring budget diet eating microwave sausages and brown rice extra dried by the fridge for the next year... it certainly won't kill me coz it hasn't killed me now"

Sure I freak out and sometimes decisions are made in those time periods, I guess I got really frustrated with the things I have to put up with to make this degree happen. I was beginning to look for escape roots... It is what is natural to do in all panic, your mind looks for exit routes! The type of personality that I am, and all that wildness inside that I keep censoring and suppressing because the society expects me to....*blinks in silence* ... I guess just expressed itself in a bit of an explosion, so the explosion happened!.. all of that was nothing more than that!! ONE OVERDUE EXPLOSION!!... ...*neatly sits down* ..."No I don't want that job, it is going from 1 peanut to an even smaller peanut, How am I expected to settle for 5grand a month when I have the potential to make much more than that upon the bagging of this qualification?"

Thing is, at first I saw this as the easy and safe route because the rebel in me just wanted to jump out the boat and take risks and not be bothered about trying to stay in a comfort zone. (breathes deeply) but now, looking at the situation SA is in... this is no easy way out at all. This is the privileged way up to where you want to get. This is the smartest way to climb that ladder coz you get payed exactly the amount your efforts are worth for shit that you studied for and love doing.!! You still need to survive at the end of the day and you wana go about it the smartest way that you know how to don't you?... I'm not out here tryna slave my hours away when I can use my mind to get me a better economical ticket. The lesson was patience, and that growth is progression...true development is never an overnight phenomena. How can't you go capitalist-thinker if you are hoping to survive in a capitalist society? huh?... tell me?

Plus I need to develop that strong leverage while I still  can coz once a Saiyan Spirit goes into the workforce it's time to build into 3 year old business plans that have been chilling there since forever just dreaming about  'spin-off-ya-wheels' net worth!! I better outdo my Dad with bucks in this lifetime  so I can stand there in 7 inch, red bottom heels and say "ey Mr. I told you I'm a krayzi genius in there, why didn't you belie' me? can you see now all the wealth my mind was able to generate?"

I feel like every time I hit a brick wall I stand up twice the kind of animal that I was when I fell. I had to tell myself today that "Thembi chill!!!! there's nothing that cannot be fixed so you need to find a way to stop stressing."

Me and her we're building hectic things right now, I can't believe I almost walked out of my media degree!!  @$!!$ There's nothing on earth that I am more passionate about!!!(writing excluded)... But what's a dumbo moment without a bit of blondeness... I want some of those memories in my old age I really do. Its time to move onto the next chapter now, I've got one long essay waiting for me, a bit of contextual work to do for my next project and tons of graphic boards to get out of the way.. I hope by Wednesday night I'll be completed with the load.

Today I started the first wing of my energy budget programme... would be too weird to call it an energy diet, lol!! but yeah I'm just choosing what I give my time and energy to coz when you die you'll never get back all those hours you wasted and shit... so now I just budget that stuff like it were real cash to go around.

I'm still on my journey, by tomorrow I hope to practice more than one of those plans coz there's still a lot that needs to be done. I'm behind schedule with everything and need to get on top of my ishnezz and stop wasting anymore time. One step to heightened productivity ..... (screaming!!) stop having pictures up to go with the journal entries already Thembi!!!!.... saves you a lot of time and energy to focus on other stuff.

Right now the plan is to go back to res and chow, have my second sitting session of the day and than return to these comp labs to continue the rest of my late assignment. What I do wish I did earlier.......is take a picture of and post up in here the picture of that amazing surprise Sne left for me yesterday.

See what happened was...
Normal Sunday vibes we were just chilling out since the morning yesterday. We went out to get breakfast and got bad service three times too many and ended up eating stuff we didn't like coz it was too early for a warm 'shwama' (Honchos pasty roll with meaty bits and coleslaw inside).

We were starving after sitting out all morning just wasting time waiting for this damn waitress to take our order at the fish and chips spot, service was so bad that 6 minutes later we stormed out of that place and you'll never see me dead buying shit from there again. We walked back to my place after settling for checkers awful large chips. We hung out some more, had the normal rich conversations we have with Sne. Everything is so real with her though, I like how passionate she gets about spiritual topics, justice and race matters.. so we always get tears sneaking into our conversations whenever we get political.
First time it happened I thought she was a bit of a ninny until I knew her better and realized that she's an emotional creature and she embraces emotion and feeling in different ways to how I do. She could have almost been one of the tormented artists of the world but kept it too positive to be trapped in that field of extreme negativity. emotion is what she works with all the time in her sketches and poetry and understands it in a very unique way from how I've been taught to think of it.
These are reasons why it's so important for me to find ways of undressing myself of all of the conditioning I grew up in so I could see the world differently as an adult.
Back to Sne, when you see her sketches and they make you feel something, you know that a God been behind that work!! She's extremely passionate about everything she does, nothing is ever done half heartedly with Sne, when she goes in... She goes in fa real!! you can only thank God for awesome friends I just love her too much!!

 Now back to the story, it took us a while to understand that magnetism was a result of positive radiation running through the body from different arrears of a persons life, I was around the same time reading up on how the Solar Plexus links to the activity that takes place in our subconscious minds... so we sat there for hours and hours putting the puzzle pieces together and man it was awesome!! When we finally got the answers that we were looking for, all cheers to an enriching day and all, she decided to fall asleep so I left a note there and headed to the lans to get more work done.

What a surprise I got when I returned... let me leave that for day 11 so I can share the images for that monumental event in my life.