The words to "bad hook up"

So I eventually decided to go through with this personal blog in anyway and just get to share my whole journey through the skull collectionz audio files.
Been in a very dark tunnel of depression in the course of the last 2 weeks, I just didn't know what I was doing with myself and creatively needed to find something stimulating to focus on.

I noticed in the last post that one of the links were messed up and not going through so in here I'll be re-introducing this skull collectionz blog, talking about the ideas behind the podcasting and also sharing the lyrics/words to 'a bad hook up', inspired by a friend of mine to do so.

This is the podcast that I recorded to welcome and introduce folk to my skull collectionz project so they know what's happening


 'click' to play audio file from soundcloud

         "Bad hook up"

"click' to play the poem from soundcloud here!!

Yes I was thinking of you, about you and all around you

fire burning wild I'm on higher wires

your one desire

make those

beautiful noises upper prognosis

I know this

because you notice

you wrote this

on all your notes

it's just focus below your nose

and those roses could never grow this.

What have you done to me

the want to run to thee, I cannot see your face but blunt to feel you Mr

I just missed the fixture

why you twisted inflicted and couldn't resist this insisted that I be your misses?

Visit heart's still inflicted in minutes he couldn't breathe in this,

conflicted sistaz can't listen and everybody knows that

bugging 'coz I am not a victim

convicted nervous to meet him

convicted

and.... nervous to meet him

I bleed him 'coz ice reeceded long ago

I fuse a beating eating from all the feeling intoxicated bulimic

I'm healing Fuq it believe me

leave me if you can't be here

breathing because this song made me feel it soooo much!!!

When the first one called me lioness my palms were under skin emotionally connected

in a physical way coz we phucking... crazy to even think that we knew love at that age bru

I couldn't be bothered.

I had to dilute a bit of me to get with you

the same shame that pollutes my air since you

is the hue rooting my depression as internal doom

to screw, screw

to screw you was what I was trying to do

before admiration grew

enough to have you see through

who I thought I was

 Yes I was thinking of you, about you and all around you

fire burning wild I'm on higher wires

your one desire

make those

beautiful noises upper prognosis

I know this

because you notice

you wrote this

on all your notes

it's just focus below your nose

and those roses could never grow this.

Officially unavailable

I'm done compromising my worth in order to give you time to match up to it

see, the diamond was still rough when you had it in your hands and still you couldn't see it for what it was.

the strongest sharpness you'll ever know

strength materialised in the honesty factor of the degrees I spit

Split second energy vibrations My what...

poetry looks like in the skin, not interested in your silly bling little rapper my poetry nuts will crush you

see

I've always been a different flavour

everytime I look at these dudes man all I really want to say is "ey kat can I just feel your skin?"

It's one big power struggle

but I'm not loosing to these indoctrinated delinquents yapping about a moral uprightness they never practice

fuq it!

If you'r looking for an angel to marry maybe Magdalene will make will wake from her grave for the Jesus in you 'coz see you'r searching in the wrong place.

 Yes I was thinking of you, about you and all around you

fire burning wild I'm on higher wires

your one desire

make those

beautiful noises upper prognosis

I know this

because you notice

you wrote this

on all your notes

it's just focus below your nose

and those roses could never grow this.

When I love I love relentlessly raw ungodly shit not to be wasted on passer-byes like you

'coz it's just worth so much.

I gave it to you, I gave it to you and you again!!

but you didn't know its worth so you fed it to your dogs

floating lifelessly in the loveless waters of your words

so that's how you knew you didn't like me??

word!!

how could I ever regret letting you mess with my head when it taught me exactly how it was that I did not want to be treated?

Goldbearer at heart heating crest at burning petals that was never for you to begin with

I can only be mad at my own self about you

I mean

I kept going back there refused to believe you were bullshitting while you never really felt me

you were just messing around 

and geuss who got hurt...maaaan!!

so yes,

I am, phucking..... officially unavailable....

P.S#
So very blessed to have an amazing and powerful artist such as Sne Shozi to grow alongside. She's made this journey that much more realer for me..... I love you so much mamis keep true to yourself like you have always been, you've been so much strength to me. Sharing your world with me has changed the way that I see everything along with my craft. Thank you for letting me into your world, your paintings, sketches and poetry have given me something I feel is too great for words and therefore cannot be described.